Ok, It's been a while since I last had the abilty to get onto the computer at the library, as things have not improved at all. In fact, they have worsened by a factor of 10.
As I did my income taxes, and discovered that I will more then likely need to pay $1000-1200 because E.I. and my former employer Pollara, did not take enough taxes out even tho I had sent requests to them to do just that. I had asked them so i could specificially avoid this situation, as I HAD done every year.. until now :\
As well, I've become more and more depressed with each passing day lately, to the point I've thought about commiting suicide several times. I've called the mental health center at the request of my doctor (after I went to go see her) to book an appointment to go speak with a councilor because of this, as I am having an increasingly hard time trying to find a reason to let myself live anymore, with all the troubles on my end.
Being so far away from any town or city, living in the country, with usually no abilty to travel unless for a doctors' or medical appointment, due to the shotage of gas money, and thus fuel for the car, leaves me trapped in my home which right now to me, feels like a fricken prison\jail. With no parol. I only have a phone, T.V with cable, and an Xbox 360 with no Xbox Live, and only 10 games for it, of which I have played 30+ times each.. but due to my increasing restlessness and unimaginalbly large feeling of boredom, I have taken to either go for hour long walks, or sleeping all day, because I literally have nothing else to do.
I have applied to over 40+ places for jobs in the meantime, from such stores like Zellers, Sobeys, Superstore, McDonalds, and Staples, to smaller locally owned business such as Dixies, Pizza Shack, I'ntér Marché and even Senior Residences and at my Hospital's Kitchen/cafeteria, in the effort to find a job. Of which each place I go, tells me they are not hiring at this time, or that if I am not bilengual, I have no chance to be hired by them (I was told at several places, If I am not french, to practically "GTFO"). Other places, when I try to follow up with them, give my the response "Don't call us, we'll call you." This is a large reason for my depression, being treated in this biased manner.
Honestly guys, I do not know what to do anymore. I need help.
My phone number is (506) 542-9729. I cannot afford long disance charges, so you'll have to call me. But that costs you money, so I know nobody will call, but still I will put it here regardless in case someone can. I am in need of someone to talk to now.
As I did my income taxes, and discovered that I will more then likely need to pay $1000-1200 because E.I. and my former employer Pollara, did not take enough taxes out even tho I had sent requests to them to do just that. I had asked them so i could specificially avoid this situation, as I HAD done every year.. until now :\
As well, I've become more and more depressed with each passing day lately, to the point I've thought about commiting suicide several times. I've called the mental health center at the request of my doctor (after I went to go see her) to book an appointment to go speak with a councilor because of this, as I am having an increasingly hard time trying to find a reason to let myself live anymore, with all the troubles on my end.
Being so far away from any town or city, living in the country, with usually no abilty to travel unless for a doctors' or medical appointment, due to the shotage of gas money, and thus fuel for the car, leaves me trapped in my home which right now to me, feels like a fricken prison\jail. With no parol. I only have a phone, T.V with cable, and an Xbox 360 with no Xbox Live, and only 10 games for it, of which I have played 30+ times each.. but due to my increasing restlessness and unimaginalbly large feeling of boredom, I have taken to either go for hour long walks, or sleeping all day, because I literally have nothing else to do.
I have applied to over 40+ places for jobs in the meantime, from such stores like Zellers, Sobeys, Superstore, McDonalds, and Staples, to smaller locally owned business such as Dixies, Pizza Shack, I'ntér Marché and even Senior Residences and at my Hospital's Kitchen/cafeteria, in the effort to find a job. Of which each place I go, tells me they are not hiring at this time, or that if I am not bilengual, I have no chance to be hired by them (I was told at several places, If I am not french, to practically "GTFO"). Other places, when I try to follow up with them, give my the response "Don't call us, we'll call you." This is a large reason for my depression, being treated in this biased manner.
Honestly guys, I do not know what to do anymore. I need help.
My phone number is (506) 542-9729. I cannot afford long disance charges, so you'll have to call me. But that costs you money, so I know nobody will call, but still I will put it here regardless in case someone can. I am in need of someone to talk to now.